Hmm...

I just know that our poly ezlink card can expire as well.
Sian.
Need to change to those typical adults one liao.
Mine just expire today!
-_-"

Sigh.
Rather ZzZ now.

Went from interviews to interviews arranged by the agents.
And nothing really comes out right.

Coz it is like the moment i think I like this one,a better offer pop out.
And when I gave out that one or it doesnt come to me,the other one also didnt get back to me.
And sometimes it is just that i dun like any.

Why cant a temp job be easier?

Ok..I am just blaming the whole world when it is really just me.

I know that one shouldnt compromise for a job just for the sake of job.This lesson comes bitter.
But sometimes...there isnt really any jobs out there that you like,agree?
(and that you really ought to be doing something)

4 days more.
4 days to see Jason!

Feel like tearing the pages off the calender.

Hey gal..how are you,on that Sunday in particular?

Cya soon.

Perhaps thursday or friday?

Argh...pimple on the left cheek!
WTF!!

I am bored.
And I miss him alot.
I dun blog a good blog coz there is nothing much good to blog,and too not a good blogger.

So whatever.

Wondering if I have got what it takes to survive in a world outside?
My previous attempts marked my inability.

Sigh...
Am kinda weary.

I miss Jason alot...

Another 5 more days.

Though it is short..but it's the process of passing each day makes it long.

Just had a rather regretful haircut.
Sigh~
Always and forever like that.
Since when there is a hair cut that makes you smile from head to toe when you step outta the salon.
Well..that's for me.

One of my aunties just pop in for a surprise visit.
Well..not that I dun like them.I am fine with my maternal relatives.
I just dun really welcome unexpected visits.
At least gimme a call or something.
Well...nvm^^

Finally it is Sunday.
A boring,nothing to do,nothing interesting,a bad hair cut Sunday.

Yawns...
This week sure takes its time to go.

I THINK I am supposed to feel 'good' now,but I dont.
Once I read the email that another of my jobless fren got a job,I feel sick.
Not that I dun want her to get a job la,Geez!
I just feel Useless (with a capital *100 U)la.

Sigh~
Job..job...money..money...time..time...=(

Went out with Yng to shop shop today,after lunch.
We were both unused to the weekend crowds.
And almost the whole good day,we were cooped inside Far East Plaza.
Haw.

Sigh...Now my whole mind is all about me being the scalawag jobless Mich!
Damnit!
This is so freaking demoralizing.

Ok..*focus*

Actually..Yng is really upset about her dear Simon's attitude.
I am just not quite please with that guy's MCP and the way he treated her.Be it whatever reasons he has,how reasonable he can make himself to be!
If I put his life in hierarchy manner,it is definitely him on top,den his friends!

I mean..which guy would really put his friends on top of his own gf??

I am kinda mad at him that I can picture myself being the Phamton singing(or rather screaming) when Christine first took off his mask.

The one that goes.."Curse you...blah blah..something something...Lolita.."

Sigh~

It is hard to imagine we are just 21 this year.

I mean..21 SHOULD be the prime age,you should be confident,free,at the peak of everything..your studies,love,career etc.

How come nothing is quite right?

For me is definitely career!
With my savings depleting,I just feel ARGH!!!!

This week is VERY long...one week is really a full 7 days for me.
God..it is just 5 mins past 12(am) now..I thought it's like 1 plus 2 in the morning!

How freaking slow is time?

Sigh~~~*pulls hair*

I realised one thing...

The older you gets...the more UNinteresting things ard you become.

These days...
It is like....

When you shop,you dun really feel that kinda glee already.
Suddenly every shop seems to be displaying the same set of designs.

When you eat,you dun really feel the kinda yummy satisfaction.(unless it's ur comfort food or maybe you are starve)
But I mean the normal meals here.
It is like there is practically no difference in taste when you decided to buy the $4.50 chicken chop at the coffeeshop or spend $11++ on a cafe.
Maybe you only feel the pinch in ur wallet.

When it is festive seasons time,you just dun feel the festive in the air.
This is accounted from Christmas till NY till this coming lunar new year.
There is like nothing exciting about it.

I remembered last X'mas,I was in a very good shopping mood.
This year...well...not really.

New year..counting down to 2005 is plainly and painfully just another day marked down.
Maybe due to the Tsunami too.

CNY...sigh...forget abt CNY.
I dun even really feel like buying any new clothes(although I did,but I just dumped them in my closet without a second try at home)
Dun feel like wearing to impress any relatives.
Dun drool over those foods.(although I know I just cannot control my hands n mouth when it comes to pineapple tarts and bak kwa)
And not that the red packets managed to lure me.I doubt i would be receiving much also.
Sian..My main concern is me earning my own money...which is still an unknown date.(sigh)

So I am over the festives...

(and) Although cuties,hunks,handsomes,babes on the street still earned a second(or third or fourth) look from me,but it is getting so -_-~ as well.

It is just not the same when you see these group of pple when you were 16.

While pple think being the 20 something is the peak of ur life,the best part.
Well...I'd say,that is unless you have achieved it all or alot when you are 20 something.

If not..you are just like me,sailing thru the quater life crisis.
You feel neither young nor old.
You dun wanna be associated with the adults but you are no youth.
You dun wanna be a grown up,act or think like one...but you just cant stoop low to be those childish teens anymore.

What is the best you can do while you are in ur 20 something.

A good career.
A good,steady relationship.
A tough as rock and sweet as honey marraige.
A couple of offsprings.

See...that is THEN the prime of 20 something.

Sigh...

i hope tml is a better day for everyone....and me..and you..and you..and me..
-_-"

Made a fool outta myself by getting both my hands all covered in paint when I was trying to wash the brush.

Thanks to mummy who helped me to get a bottle of that..alcohol thingy to wash off those paint.

Wanted to change this damn blogskin,but I am sick of doing the editing.
the more codes I added,the more difficult for me to change the skin.

Plus not many skins have the archives.(my previous blogs)

Just bear with it for a while la.

But I think blogskin is kinda down?I dunno,think they change their website liao.

Can design my own skin though,but alot of work to do then.
So forget it la~
Am never interested to spend hours facing the screen.

Was supposed to go out with Yng for dinner tonight,but I just know that it will be postpone la.
Lol.

Maybe tml.
Gotta see how it goes.

Withdrawal symtons...like Yng said.
"now you see,now you dont"

The harder part of the week has kinda pass..TGIF.

I guess it is just the raw feeling that every couple cant use to initially.

Kinda funny though.

I just hope when he is back,I wont have to fact that ZW Wong who is just the typical army guys that go fucking all the way.

i want Jason...not ZW Wong in the greens.

Hehz.

Stumple upon this stupid thing.
http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan

Go and "play" if ya bored.
Mine: "Break me a Piece of that Mich"

Ha=/

Had a dream of someone I shouldnt have at all.
Still remembered that dream now...think it's gonna fade as the hours pass later.
Why on earth...But I guess I wouldnt deny the fact.

Lala..

Hey GAL!You registered for that EPT already!
Pls la..dun DRAG!
The next thing I know is that you dun want to study in NIE le~
*piangz*

Pls do so ASAP!
They are not gonna wait for you,you know.

TGIF!

I dunno if there are gonna be more phone calls from the agents today, I wouldnt be surprised if there are.

But I AM gonna stay home today!
Had enough of the freaking sun!

Next week den start all over again.

I am hoping...perhaps after CNY,I am working already.

If no new clothes for CNY is bad,remaining that poor after CNY is pathetic!

Yawns...

I always miss the past times.
i miss studying in school..
I miss my bunch of crappy fellas.
I miss TEP,perhaps the highlight of NYP life.
I miss gg to sch with Yng.
I miss crapping with her.

Whenever I get nostalgic like this...Oh nvm~

just read Von's blog and feels sad for that old lady.

well..WHAT THE F AM I SITTING AT HOME FOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This kinda sun just fry my brain!
Isnt it more unbearable if you are marching,running,training under such sun?
Sigh!

Anyway...I guess I didnt really do too well for this interview.
I dunno what happened to me.
Somehow I wasnt quite prepared.
Maybe the manager is too pretty for me to focus.
Maybe I am dehydrated.

Well..whatever.

It brings me back to those days when I first started seeking jobs.
And this kinda feeling SUCKS big time.

Why cant those agents just matched me with simple admin,clerical,data entry jobs?

Everyone of them just called me out for some HR asst positions.
Sigh~Can I tell them I really DO NOT fancy HR?

I hate lying to those interviewers that I LIKE HR?!

I wanted to be hang up with some jobs that gets me away for these few mths.

So anyone pls?
Help me a look out.

Wait..I guess I am talking to Yng here.
Sigh~

I'm fried!

While I cant wait for a brand new day to begins coz it signifies one day closer till we meet.
But I absolutely hate to start a brand new day without him,and ended a call at night.

Woke up each morning feeling a lil lonely n vulnerable.
It's almost that I cant hear him at all.

It is sad that I am so used to rec his msg evry now and then,and can hear and see him almost anytime I want to.
Now I am limited to only a certain amt of time at a specific time slot.
It makes living a lil sad too.

Sigh...Sigh...Sigh!!

The day is really long..so long that it is getting unbearable for me!

Godamnit!

Finally I am back.

Listen..if you wanna tan,do it right now.
Just walk along the streets and your skin turns reddish to brown.Depending on individuals.

Ok..Gal..
I think you can report my name to ur boss if they need anyone.

Today!
I went for the ARMY interview.

Remember sometime back,I said I am just randomly submitting my resumes for these kinda Govt' org.
And voila,I am shortlisted for an interview today.

What I expect for the job is...
slacking,admin,good pay,relax.

Pass thru interview,pass thru medical screening,and that's it.

Morever my friend who is working under Mindef is just doing what I expect,plus NO contract!

BUT!
The interview was nothing that I expect.

Look..If you were me,you probably expect an one to one showdown in a small room.That's the typical interview.

But when I entered the room,my eyes widen to the row of 5 officers!And I am just sitting on a chair facing all of them,with no table infront of me.

It is like...you are auditioning for some big thing,like maybe the SG idol,but with sterner and more pple.

I have to thank whoever and whatever that I manage to pull the cool cat image infront of them.
Till the start I heard one of the officer saying,"she speaks well!'
=p

Well..thank you,that is a flatter,honest!

While the head is that kinda no bull shit,no nonsense kind,I think we manage to talk ok la.
But seriously the way he describe the jobs and everything,I know I am backing off.

Coz other than the fact of no OT pay,no increment after that damn 6 mths of probation,he is just some one who will bite you off if u make mistake.

So i deliberately make my Ace to maybe a B or so,coz I dun think I wanna hear them calling me for medical screening again.

Well...
See.Even if I am ok with tough work,no OT etc..I am more concerned abt that contract.

While NIE may or may not be successful,I am still gonna try.

Everything can be decided later after I know the results of NIE.
*pray pray*

Anyway...
So that sets me back to square one again.

I am gonna look for a few mths temp that holds me up.

If NIE not successful,I would look 4 job.

i am weary of all these interviews shit,man!

You know what,the agent just called me down for another one tml.
-_-"

Well..dear sista,
I just hope that you still reserve me a place there,so maybe we can work together after all.
Just a look up.

And thanks pret!

So tired....
@-_-@

Back fr0m The Phamton of e Opera with Yng.
Although I missed a great part of it,but that gives me the excuse to buy the vcd and watch all over again.;p
Now lemme see whose the Phamton?
Oh it's Gerard Butler...erm..whoever that is la.

It's a whole musical whole and all.
98% of the time was music and singing.

I have my faint impression of this whole classical opera back in secondary school.
When in choir,we were made to sing.
I find it a very deafening and powerful song,esp the starting.
And of coz..I think GYSS choir sucks big time,and that's one of the reasons I didnt stay.

What beautiful notes the Sopranos can hit.
I badly wish I am the Sopranos but am an Alto.=(
of coz I am not talking about those glass shattering voices of those really high trembling pitch of those operas Sopranos.Those were the extreme for me.

Emmy Rossum (Christine in the Phamton) did it just beautifully!

I wonder if they are the real singers behind the show,think so la.

If GYSS has a good and united choir,I would have stay long enough to really learn how to sing it well..even I am no Soprano.
I did learn how to sing from the diaphgram but I never practice it enough and never bother to do so.
That's why I often cant sing well.

And with a bf who is actually a Tenor(the male Soprano)...I am made to keep my damn voice to myself.
Ha.

And now recalling...my dear Yng,i think she is a Soprano too!
I mean she wasnt in the choir,but I have heard her sing a few times(that rare few times) back in those days.
And mind you,my sis here has a very clear crisp nice voice!
It's a pity that she seldom open out her voice box and let it sing.
********************************************************

Msged her dear Simon happy bday.
And his nice reply came back and made me hard to digest that he is actually the same guy who makes Yng crys like shit sometimes.
I wonder....
I mean I am in no right to say anything...
But is he for real?

I know Simon is no way a bad guy.
He was once the sweetest bf that I ever know(from observations)
But during the times when Yng is so down becoz of him,I really feel like strangling him alive!

Sigh...
Whatever it is..I hope that they will get things right..

Sometimes it's the ladies' PMS.
Sometimes it's the men' insensitiveness and MCP.

It always takes two hands to clap.

=)

*********************************************************************

Jason...for one of the very few times actually,brought me a gr8 surprise even he is not with me.
It is totally outta my expectations...I mean I havent even think of anything.

Thanks Yng.
And yes,I will remind him for the delivery charges.;)

Over the phone,we were like nothing like before.Esp me.
Totally unlike me,in the past.

I just cant wait for the 5th.

i think i am staring to curb the "withdrawal symtons"

Thanks Yng.
And thanks everyone else.

**************************
Another 4 hours 45 mins till his start of day 5.

Now that I recalled...
I had a dream about you...
One part is you telling me that you miss reading my blogs,now that you cant read it inside.
Ha...
I miss you alot.
Really....do..

I feel just a little better now.
I just agreed to that agent I think I pissed him off yet he has to deal with me for the temp admin at the far far Whitesands Pri School.
I guess I just didnt wanna wait.Even though it's kinda far but thank god,i still have bus from here.
Now whether he calls back again is one thing.
Whatever.

I vividly recall that eve of his enlistment.
I dunno if it's the same with every couples,but I guess it's abt the same.

We met up with his mum and 2 of his aunties.
Lil Charmine is just too likeable and adorable.
Every now and then I heard pple saying,"So pretty!!!!"
And she is very 'sticking' to me.
Of coz Jason is busy being a nanny to that Hong2.

After dinner at the horrible KFC,we went to West Coast.A big 'play ground' for the kids.
Some of them were looks pretty dangerous though.

Lil Charmine just wont stop wanting me to be with her.haha.
Whenever me and Jason held hands,Charmine would come in b/w and held our hands.Haha,how adorable!
I would really love a gal like her in the future.*prays hard*

But all the time,I was wishing that the pple would disappear so that we are left alone for good.

On the bus,I am already tearing.I cant help but keep tearing.

Outside my house,he finally cried too.
The last time I remembered seeing him cried is our 13th month...I hurt him too much then.

This time is different.
He cried becoz he cant bear too.

Von told me..during her time...
She was so sad that she couldnt send Andy coz he is gg in the morning.
On his car,they cried together.
And naturally she cired more than that.

She refers to this analogy.It was as if your fav toy is being snatched away from you.
And I remembered she is very pale during that period of time,and she keeps lamenting that without a bf sucks!

And I firmly believe that my dear Yng has her fair share of experience.

I guess it's a phase that every couple who has this chance,went through.

Am I glad that I am given this chance afterall?
Maybe...I dunno..yea..maybe.

I remembered Jason said that night that..this may be good afterall..so he will learn to treasure me more in the future..
And I really thought it should be me learning to treasure him more?

Somehow....
As much as I miss him,I always manage to calm myself down.
Coz...I can feel him...
Maybe it's my own sided feeling.
But...I really can feel him.

Today is just day 3.

We will see each other soon.

Suddenly...eating has become a task that is hard to do.
Either I am just not hungry or I really dun feel like eating.

Maybe you think I just just being too emotional,too dramatic or anything.
But what I am feeling is true,so quit poking.

Today is our 18th(+1) month anniversary.
Our first anniversary that we are not together.

I miss Jason alot,I really do.

I have been holding my tears from yesterday since we met till we part.
When he kissed me gd bye there,I almost wanted to stop him from turning his back on me and leave.
Sigh!

When the clock strikes 9.30pm,I became very anxious and panicky.
I knew he would call his mother first,but of coz.

When he finally called,though I was trying to laugh over the phone..I am already all teary on this line.

7 mins 01 sec,we chatted only for this long till he must leave coz the sergeant called.

At around 10.20pm plus,he called again.

This time ...he was different.
He already broke down to tears.
My heart shattered to pieces and even finer dust...hearing him cry.

I wanted to cheer him up so I wished him Happy 18th month eve,and he cried.
He told me...he is so sorry that he couldnt be by my side..and misses me alot...

That I realised one thing.
When the one you love is crying,it hurts more badly than you crying alone,and much more painful that you arent there to wipe his tears.

2 mins 35 secs.
We ended the call.

I cried badly.
I dunno what time I finally went to sleep.

When I awoke,it's only 8.30am.I thought I have sleep for a very long time.So I closed my eyes trying to sleep the day away,but only to wake up every one hour wishing it's at least noon.

Somehow,if possible,I dun wanna cry.
Coz somehow I believe that when I cried,he would cry too coz he can feel my pain and vice versa.

Just like when I finally stop crying last night,I knew he must have finally went to sleep.

Maybe I am wrong.But I would like to contain this belief.

I guess the later days...the trainings and everything would take his mind away.At least it would occupied his mind for a good while.By the end of the day,he would be tired.
And somehow..that's good,coz I dun want him to feel any emotion pain inside.

Our separation is so short as compared to many...So I believe that we can pass it.

He asked me something,almost came as a plead,which is something I would have done without asking as well.

He asked in tears...if I come to Pasir Ris and fetch him that Saturday.

of coz...

then I realised too...my boo is not as strong as he always seem.
that he is quite an indirect person too.
he didnt always put what he wants in words.
he would rather let me run all over him than to tell me that he is angry,sad,upset with me too.

He is one son not only his mother is very proud of,but his aunties and even my parents.

You wouldnt imagine what auntie said to me...all those words that would put me to shame for hurting Jason and even owing him.

I bet she didnt tell Jason all these...I see a mother...who is very very proud of her son.Despite she has two sons,she is always prouder of Jason and more worried for his brother.

I felt a mother's pride.
I would imagine that she too,is very sad.

Why is time so slow.
A normal 24 hours seem to mutiply by 2 or 3.

I miss...Jason...alot.

smilez
Mich^^

asking for some songs
Mich^^

him n his god ma,very funny hehz
Mich^^

me n him
Mich^^

CLose up
Mich^^

me,him n his grandpop
Mich^^

him n his fav hong hong
Mich^^

One last regular blog.
I guess I wouldnt be much interested in blogging every now and then after he goes in.

Later I will be gg to his house for dinner.
(he's ordering pizza)
I hate to think that today is the eve!

Sigh..could I stage a kidnap?
-_-!

It's a wonder how some people know me in my neighbourhood,without me knowing their existence.
Hmm..
************
Just read an email from Shaowei,complaining all his and his unit's bad luck in the army.
Which makes me worried again.
Sigh..
Pray hard for all smooth sailings for my dearest him.

********************

Went to his house this afternoon for lunch.
He whipped out something quite easy to make,but creativity counts here..I guess.
Not too bad though;)

After lazing ard for a few hours,we got ready for his training.

I sat a good 2 hours at TPY stadium.
I laughed at his friends' comments(which he told me thereafter)..well,I think they are hallucinating.

And guess what?
Eunice(that dino) quitted!!Dogbert apparently 'abuse' her at work till she couldnt take it,not to mention that really useless Catberg(the manager) is under D.B's control as well!
What the!
Although sometimes I cant stand Dino as well,but we are still on talking terms when I was there.

And when I think back abt the crazy,depressing,dark days at the lousy hotel...it makes me wanna puke!And I am so fucking glad that I am no longer with them.

I pitied that new gal whose taking my hot seat now.
Yea,that seat of mine is so hot that noone stays for long!LOL!

Although Eunice said that Grace is still very nice to that new girl,called Jane.
But she said that Jane is a lil slow on learning,though very cheerful.

I would say..not that I boast,that I picked up that damn shit pretty fast!

If that girl cont'd learning slow,I cant imagine what D.B is gonna do to her.
All da best,girlie!

********************
And we went to catch "Shall We Dance?" after dinner at L.John.
We had a good talk during dinner.
I told him what I am afraid of losing...you know...facing the new phase of our lives.
But I cant be too sad now coz there is no point either.
Gotta brace up and take them on.

But the highlight is!!!!
He said this...something which is exactly in my thoughts...something I wrote on a letter that is yet to be read by him.
He said....after his NS,if we are still together,we shall get engaged!Then we save all the money and get hitch after 2-3 years time.

Although this is what I want to say as well,but I cant help that big,shy smile plastered on my face when he said this.
Hehz!
*****************

"Shall We Dance?" staring the very charismatic,charming Richard Gere and Jennifer Lopez.(well.I dunno the rest of their names.)

It's a very very simple story,with some very good laugh lines,nice dances and touches of simple blissing romances.

....
I almost did a whole review of the story but I deleted them off.
What's the pt?

But Richard is one damn charming that I wish I am dancing with.Damn..guys who dances(not those club dances) are so charming!

That leads me to a dream I had a few years back.
I just told Jason after the movie.

i dreamt I was some kinda princess?or something.
Dressed up in some pink gown..you noe,those big,fluffy type.
I was at the big hall,with lots of other pple dancing ard me.(those ball room dances)
And there I was twirling round and round and round with a guy,whom I cant see his face!

When I woke up...I assume that he is my prince,and we will meet soon.
Haha..how soon is soon?

******************

Sigh..tml shall be the last time we are spending together with his civilian status.
And he is not gonna send me back home,like today.
=(

Guess I gotta get use to that too.

Though Yng is telling me it's nothing..time passes fast etc.

But it's not exactly the pt of time passes fast or slow.
It's more like I am so used to his prescence ard me almost all of my time.
And it is like..so...difficult?without him.

Oh yes..I'm a baby!

Geez..I didnt really wanna sleep.Coz it's like once I close my eyes,it's more day closer to the 22nd.

I dunno how I am ever gonna make it back on my own on the 22nd,from Tekong to my house.
Everywhere is like..I am so used to him besides me.
Walking together,sitting together..etc.

He told me that I cannot cry!
What an order.

It's not the destination,but the journey.
It's not that I cant face separation for a good 2 weeks at least..it's more like how the 2 weeks are gonna pass.

Sigh...
I love you,dear.
Thanks for a wonderful day;)

It's a wonder how some people know me in my neighbourhood,without me knowing their existence.
Hmm..
************
Just read an email from Shaowei,complaining all his and his unit's bad luck in the army.
Which makes me worried again.
Sigh..
Pray hard for all smooth sailings for my dearest him.

********************

Went to his house this afternoon for lunch.
He whipped out something quite easy to make,but creativity counts here..I guess.
Not too bad though;)

After lazing ard for a few hours,we got ready for his training.

I sat a good 2 hours at TPY stadium.
I laughed at his friends' comments(which he told me thereafter)..well,I think they are hallucinating.

And guess what?
Eunice(that dino) quitted!!Dogbert apparently 'abuse' her at work till she couldnt take it,not to mention that really useless Catberg(the manager) is under D.B's control as well!
What the!
Although sometimes I cant stand Dino as well,but we are still on talking terms when I was there.

And when I think back abt the crazy,depressing,dark days at the lousy hotel...it makes me wanna puke!And I am so fucking glad that I am no longer with them.

I pitied that new gal whose taking my hot seat now.
Yea,that seat of mine is so hot that noone stays for long!LOL!

Although Eunice said that Grace is still very nice to that new girl,called Jane.
But she said that Jane is a lil slow on learning,though very cheerful.

I would say..not that I boast,that I picked up that damn shit pretty fast!

If that girl cont'd learning slow,I cant imagine what D.B is gonna do to her.
All da best,girlie!

********************
And we went to catch "Shall We Dance?" after dinner at L.John.
We had a good talk during dinner.
I told him what I am afraid of losing...you know...facing the new phase of our lives.
But I cant be too sad now coz there is no point either.
Gotta brace up and take them on.

But the highlight is!!!!
He said this...something which is exactly in my thoughts...something I wrote on a letter that is yet to be read by him.
He said....after his NS,if we are still together,we shall get engaged!Then we save all the money and get hitch after 2-3 years time.

Although this is what I want to say as well,but I cant help that big,shy smile plastered on my face when he said this.
Hehz!
*****************

"Shall We Dance?" staring the very charismatic,charming Richard Gere and Jennifer Lopez.(well.I dunno the rest of their names.)

It's a very very simple story,with some very good laugh lines,nice dances and touches of simple blissing romances.

....
I almost did a whole review of the story but I deleted them off.
What's the pt?

But Richard is one damn charming that I wish I am dancing with.Damn..guys who dances(not those club dances) are so charming!

That leads me to a dream I had a few years back.
I just told Jason after the movie.

i dreamt I was some kinda princess?or something.
Dressed up in some pink gown..you noe,those big,fluffy type.
I was at the big hall,with lots of other pple dancing ard me.(those ball room dances)
And there I was twirling round and round and round with a guy,whom I cant see his face!

When I woke up...I assume that he is my prince,and we will meet soon.
Haha..how soon is soon?

******************

Sigh..tml shall be the last time we are spending together with his civilian status.
And he is not gonna send me back home,like today.
=(

Guess I gotta get use to that too.

Though Yng is telling me it's nothing..time passes fast etc.

But it's not exactly the pt of time passes fast or slow.
It's more like I am so used to his prescence ard me almost all of my time.
And it is like..so...difficult?without him.

Oh yes..I'm a baby!

Geez..I didnt really wanna sleep.Coz it's like once I close my eyes,it's more day closer to the 22nd.

I dunno how I am ever gonna make it back on my own on the 22nd,from Tekong to my house.
Everywhere is like..I am so used to him besides me.
Walking together,sitting together..etc.

He told me that I cannot cry!
What an order.

It's not the destination,but the journey.
It's not that I cant face separation for a good 2 weeks at least..it's more like how the 2 weeks are gonna pass.

Sigh...
I love you,dear.
Thanks for a wonderful day;)

It's a wonder how some people know me in my neighbourhood,without me knowing their existence.
Hmm..
************
Just read an email from Shaowei,complaining all his and his unit's bad luck in the army.
Which makes me worried again.
Sigh..
Pray hard for all smooth sailings for my dearest him.

********************

Went to his house this afternoon for lunch.
He whipped out something quite easy to make,but creativity counts here..I guess.
Not too bad though;)

After lazing ard for a few hours,we got ready for his training.

I sat a good 2 hours at TPY stadium.
I laughed at his friends' comments(which he told me thereafter)..well,I think they are hallucinating.

And guess what?
Eunice(that dino) quitted!!Dogbert apparently 'abuse' her at work till she couldnt take it,not to mention that really useless Catberg(the manager) is under D.B's control as well!
What the!
Although sometimes I cant stand Dino as well,but we are still on talking terms when I was there.

And when I think back abt the crazy,depressing,dark days at the lousy hotel...it makes me wanna puke!And I am so fucking glad that I am no longer with them.

I pitied that new gal whose taking my hot seat now.
Yea,that seat of mine is so hot that noone stays for long!LOL!

Although Eunice said that Grace is still very nice to that new girl,called Jane.
But she said that Jane is a lil slow on learning,though very cheerful.

I would say..not that I boast,that I picked up that damn shit pretty fast!

If that girl cont'd learning slow,I cant imagine what D.B is gonna do to her.
All da best,girlie!

********************
And we went to catch "Shall We Dance?" after dinner at L.John.
We had a good talk during dinner.
I told him what I am afraid of losing...you know...facing the new phase of our lives.
But I cant be too sad now coz there is no point either.
Gotta brace up and take them on.

But the highlight is!!!!
He said this...something which is exactly in my thoughts...something I wrote on a letter that is yet to be read by him.
He said....after his NS,if we are still together,we shall get engaged!Then we save all the money and get hitch after 2-3 years time.

Although this is what I want to say as well,but I cant help that big,shy smile plastered on my face when he said this.
Hehz!
*****************

"Shall We Dance?" staring the very charismatic,charming Richard Gere and Jennifer Lopez.(well.I dunno the rest of their names.)

It's a very very simple story,with some very good laugh lines,nice dances and touches of simple blissing romances.

....
I almost did a whole review of the story but I deleted them off.
What's the pt?

But Richard is one damn charming that I wish I am dancing with.Damn..guys who dances(not those club dances) are so charming!

That leads me to a dream I had a few years back.
I just told Jason after the movie.

i dreamt I was some kinda princess?or something.
Dressed up in some pink gown..you noe,those big,fluffy type.
I was at the big hall,with lots of other pple dancing ard me.(those ball room dances)
And there I was twirling round and round and round with a guy,whom I cant see his face!

When I woke up...I assume that he is my prince,and we will meet soon.
Haha..how soon is soon?

******************

Sigh..tml shall be the last time we are spending together with his civilian status.
And he is not gonna send me back home,like today.
=(

Guess I gotta get use to that too.

Though Yng is telling me it's nothing..time passes fast etc.

But it's not exactly the pt of time passes fast or slow.
It's more like I am so used to his prescence ard me almost all of my time.
And it is like..so...difficult?without him.

Oh yes..I'm a baby!

Geez..I didnt really wanna sleep.Coz it's like once I close my eyes,it's more day closer to the 22nd.

I dunno how I am ever gonna make it back on my own on the 22nd,from Tekong to my house.
Everywhere is like..I am so used to him besides me.
Walking together,sitting together..etc.

He told me that I cannot cry!
What an order.

It's not the destination,but the journey.
It's not that I cant face separation for a good 2 weeks at least..it's more like how the 2 weeks are gonna pass.

Sigh...
I love you,dear.
Thanks for a wonderful day;)

It's a wonder how some people know me in my neighbourhood,without me knowing their existence.
Hmm..
************
Just read an email from Shaowei,complaining all his and his unit's bad luck in the army.
Which makes me worried again.
Sigh..
Pray hard for all smooth sailings for my dearest him.

********************

Went to his house this afternoon for lunch.
He whipped out something quite easy to make,but creativity counts here..I guess.
Not too bad though;)

After lazing ard for a few hours,we got ready for his training.

I sat a good 2 hours at TPY stadium.
I laughed at his friends' comments(which he told me thereafter)..well,I think they are hallucinating.

And guess what?
Eunice(that dino) quitted!!Dogbert apparently 'abuse' her at work till she couldnt take it,not to mention that really useless Catberg(the manager) is under D.B's control as well!
What the!
Although sometimes I cant stand Dino as well,but we are still on talking terms when I was there.

And when I think back abt the crazy,depressing,dark days at the lousy hotel...it makes me wanna puke!And I am so fucking glad that I am no longer with them.

I pitied that new gal whose taking my hot seat now.
Yea,that seat of mine is so hot that noone stays for long!LOL!

Although Eunice said that Grace is still very nice to that new girl,called Jane.
But she said that Jane is a lil slow on learning,though very cheerful.

I would say..not that I boast,that I picked up that damn shit pretty fast!

If that girl cont'd learning slow,I cant imagine what D.B is gonna do to her.
All da best,girlie!

********************
And we went to catch "Shall We Dance?" after dinner at L.John.
We had a good talk during dinner.
I told him what I am afraid of losing...you know...facing the new phase of our lives.
But I cant be too sad now coz there is no point either.
Gotta brace up and take them on.

But the highlight is!!!!
He said this...something which is exactly in my thoughts...something I wrote on a letter that is yet to be read by him.
He said....after his NS,if we are still together,we shall get engaged!Then we save all the money and get hitch after 2-3 years time.

Although this is what I want to say as well,but I cant help that big,shy smile plastered on my face when he said this.
Hehz!
*****************

"Shall We Dance?" staring the very charismatic,charming Richard Gere and Jennifer Lopez.(well.I dunno the rest of their names.)

It's a very very simple story,with some very good laugh lines,nice dances and touches of simple blissing romances.

....
I almost did a whole review of the story but I deleted them off.
What's the pt?

But Richard is one damn charming that I wish I am dancing with.Damn..guys who dances(not those club dances) are so charming!

That leads me to a dream I had a few years back.
I just told Jason after the movie.

i dreamt I was some kinda princess?or something.
Dressed up in some pink gown..you noe,those big,fluffy type.
I was at the big hall,with lots of other pple dancing ard me.(those ball room dances)
And there I was twirling round and round and round with a guy,whom I cant see his face!

When I woke up...I assume that he is my prince,and we will meet soon.
Haha..how soon is soon?

******************

Sigh..tml shall be the last time we are spending together with his civilian status.
And he is not gonna send me back home,like today.
=(

Guess I gotta get use to that too.

Though Yng is telling me it's nothing..time passes fast etc.

But it's not exactly the pt of time passes fast or slow.
It's more like I am so used to his prescence ard me almost all of my time.
And it is like..so...difficult?without him.

Oh yes..I'm a baby!

Geez..I didnt really wanna sleep.Coz it's like once I close my eyes,it's more day closer to the 22nd.

I dunno how I am ever gonna make it back on my own on the 22nd,from Tekong to my house.
Everywhere is like..I am so used to him besides me.
Walking together,sitting together..etc.

He told me that I cannot cry!
What an order.

It's not the destination,but the journey.
It's not that I cant face separation for a good 2 weeks at least..it's more like how the 2 weeks are gonna pass.

Sigh...
I love you,dear.
Thanks for a wonderful day;)

Please be warned.
I may be switching my hp off as and when these days to avoid the calls of some horric agents.
Well..maybe I am the damn horric one.
I promise...I promise that I will be better after Jason enlists,ok?

Dont worry...Well...I try not to la.

I find Leeser so damn pretty!
(She's the damn pretty one living down my house..Yng..the one whose mum's head pop outta the window one.)

I dunno why is such a gal still single?
Maybe she loves it?
She is the babe of NYP,the babe of my neighbourhood...yet the babe I have NEVER seen before here.
Weird.

And she thinks her face is fat!!
Wtf!FAT?
FAT is when you focus on my waist,princess!

Grr...Some gals just dunno what are the damn fine assets she own!

And dont you dare to shoot that same sentence back to me~
Coz I know my limits,that's far from the sky.

Anyway...Jason and I are off to dancing in some lousy cinema tml.
Gotta make do.
And my handsome,charming Richard Gere...I'm gonna kiss you!

*Gag me*
I think Yng just said that..lol.

Alright gotta catch my show.
Cya folks

(Well..looks like things are changing more dramatically than I expect.Hmph.
Am I glad for them?
Well..more like I am snickering...)
---------------*****Not concerning anyone reading this******------------------------

Wow..wow..today is absolute a shopping spree for my dear.
I just bought a pair of jeans @ Fox.(ok,and a bath foam~)

Well..more like he bought^^.Come on dear....;D

Hey,I spent more than that!

Anyway...erm...wait a minute...I lost my train of thoughts.

Um..um....ok whatever..till my next entry.
Gotta bath bath first.

I think Recruit Express is gonna put my name into the top ten slammers' list.(or any other list similar to that)

The agent just called(and I finally pick it up) to ask me to go to this interview abt the temp CS he told me yesterday.
And me,after agreeing,decided to drop this case when I checked how far the place is.
Not to mention how damn ulu it is too.

Sigh...I am hopeless!
Truely a scalawag!

Some U-Believe-It-Anot

OK, here's some believes of the hoteliers:
> > >> > >Every single hotel, there shall be at least a permanent room which>should> > >be left vacant at all times.
No matter how full the hotel is,
> > >they are not to sell that room(s) to any guest.
It was said that >special> > >room was "reserved" for those "special visitors".
> > >So, if you plan to stay in some hotel, always book in advance.> > >> > >
Try to avoid walk in.> > >
If the receptionist told you there's no more room available, do not>insist> > >
one anymore or try to bribe them to give you a room.
If you do> > >that, most of the time the room you have will be that "special room".> > >> >

>Sometimes those "special visitors" might go to other rooms also, so>here's> > >some tips on how to protect yourself:

> > >Before entering your room, always knock on the door first, even you >know> > >the room is vacant.> > >

After you enter the room, if you felt very cold suddenly and have>"chicken> > >spore", lea ve the room quietly immediately and go to reception> > >to request to change room. Most of the time the receptionist will> > >understand what's happening.> > >

After you enter the room, immediately switch on all of the lights, and>open> > >the curtain to let the sun light in.> > >> > >

Before you go to bed, arrange your shoes so that one of them is upside> > >down. Some say this is representing yin & yang to protect you while> > >you're asleep.

Always leave at least a lamp on while you're sleeping,> > >preferably the toilet's lamp.> > >> >

>If you're staying alone and they have give you a twin bed, do not sleep> > >with the other bed vacant, try to put your things like luggage on the> > >other bed before you sleep.

I did thought of gg for a nap after Jason left my house.But not when I am feeling so bloated.
I am thinking....

What should I do after he goes in?
Ok...I need a job.
But no jobs really interests me.And after resting for this long,I feel so dead.

And I plan for NIE?
Well..it's time to get things started.If I want to goes in,I must take that EPT.
And Yng has a bad news for me.
She told me she is not sure if she wants to go to NIE now.
Gr8~Just what I dont need to hear.

Becoz...I am feeling so directionless.
I am practically...doing nothing for a long time.
Hmm..

And what if the application is bloody unsucessful?
But I know,one thing I know for good,is that I would want teaching to be a career for me.

Anyway...

We went to catch 'The Aviator' last night.(His choice)

I wondered how many wrinkles Leonardo earns on his forehead just for this movie.He is practically frowning all the way.

I dun quite get this whole story abt Howard hughes.
All I know his life is all about risking against the riskes and earns big bucks(losing at the same time) at the expense of his own life.
He's a germ-freak aka cleanliness freak aka freak.
He is a playboy,a posessive man.
He is one very crazy fella.Short circuit in the brain.
When the circuits break down,he will stutter like a robot and keep repeating the same words.

And guess how the story ends?
It ended off that he made sucess with the world biggest plane,and thought of new idea again.
--Jetplane.
And then his mind gets short circuited becoz of some fear that grips him.(could be his own psychological thoughts) and the show ended off with...

"The way of the future..the way of the future...."
ANd yea..Q.U.A.R.A.N.T.I.N.E!

Dont ask me anything.
I dunno.A lil too much for me to comprehend this story.

And it's a very long movie.Ard...2 hours.

The only part I like is when Howard(Leo.D) debates with the senator.
I thought it was pretty fascinating,although LEo's accent is a lil hard to catch.
His whiny Amercian voice~
Like speaking thru the nostrils.

And today I made the creamy penne~
My bro loves it!But I really thought it is too salty!
It's almost like a lot of melted cheese!
Ha.
But as long as Jason doesnt complain~
He even said he wont have to go to Pasta Mania next time.(oh yea right ;/)

Tml we are gg to get his supplies(finally.)

Today is Tuesday....
Hmm....So goes another day

His first Confrontation.

I was told to sleep.
After washing up,I knew I couldn't...yet.
I am finally awake and knew I had to finish my whole story.
Maybe it's a lil' too late but I had in mind to blog all these,but the incident happened a lil too quickly,unexpectedly.

I dunno if it's purely psychological or just my whole personality,the way I am,that is bad.

Sometimes....the more we(gals)demand attention,the more wayward we become.
I dun think I am the only one,yet there is still no justification that how I should behave that badly.

He brought me to watch the match b/w Singapore and Indonesia.

How should I say..okie..listen.This is purely my own stand.
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I am truely sorry that I am just not interested in soccer.
I am sorry that I just cant be as enthusiastic,passionate,keen as that gal sitting right infront of us.
I am sorry that I behave like an attitude icicle,perhaps the only icicle in the whole stadium.
I am sorry that I just dun cheer with the crowd.

Because I purely cant find myself being immersed in the joy,the same excitement that's in your pulse beating.

The best I can do is sit with you,watch the whole match and give that applaud(even it's light but sincere) at every goal and the trophy part.

If I cant cheer and cuss like all of you soccer fanatics,the best I can do is to keep my bloody mouth shut throughout the game.

If I cant be a sport and do that heart winning 'wave' cheer,the best I can do is smile and watch the wave goes round.

I know you wanted to watch.Even it's something I dun fancy watching,I could watch it with you,coz I know you wanted to watch with me.

I got up early in the morning to do my house chores.If I cant stay at home and be with my family,the best I can do is at least do finish the chores so that my mum could have some rest.

I tried to look my best and even told myself at the mirror that no matter how I will not throw any tantrums today.

But I am sorry I look like some rag,and really broke my "promise".

I walked to buy some pastas and wanted to make some decent pasta next time,at least one more time.

I walked to central hoping that the shop has the cheese tarts today.They dont sell it everytime,i suppose.
I know you like the tarts but I am sorry that I squashed them in my bag.
The usual klutz,I am.

I am sorry that I dismissed every of your ideas and choices.Maybe it's just me,the way I am.The way you allowed me to be right from the start.
Even though I dun disagree with you,but I did still.
I know it aint right,but I forgotten that you may not like.

Finally the match is over.I stood up,feeling numb.

I dunno if it is becoz that I hadn't had anything since lunch or it is just another psychological act of mine?

Maybe you think this is lame,stupid or you just dont believe it could happen.

But as we were leaving....Everyone...everyone was doing that loud cheer.

It was overwhelming,very deafening.
It was very packed and crowded as well.
Almost everyone was wearing red and singing out loud.

The cheer became my noise.It goes all the way through my ears to my head.

Suddenly I was scared.I wanted to scream and squat down.I felt faint.
As if the cheers became some chantings and it goes round and round.

I dun need a mirror or another pair of eyes to look at me.
I know every single drip of blood had flow off my face.
My hands were cold and slightly trembling.

I was tearing my hair and clutching hard.
I covered my ears for a while but still the cheer is strong.

I dun want anyone else to touch me.I dunno where I was heading.

Maybe I can still conscious then.Maybe all these are my excuses.
But THEN i knew nothing.

But I was surprised that you didnt see a thing.
You didnt feel that I am scared.

You knew I was behaving weird and thought I was just giving my piece of attitude.

Till we reached the bus stop,you pulled me behind...

How long have we been together?
1 year,6 mths plus.

But i think this is your first confrontation.

"What's wrong with you!" You repeated a few times.

Two days you been out with me,I have been giving the same attitude.

The previous one/two times,i admit..it was my fault.
Even this time...It still is.
So I kept my silence and take all your scoldings.

But it was something you cont'd to say that I cant take.
Though it's purely understandable...but I dun like it.

You told me,you could have watch it with your friends.
But you didnt coz you wanna watch it with me.

Coz I understand.Who would wanna watch with an anti climax fella who cant give a fuck about soccer.Who cant understand the passion.
Who thinks soccer is really just another uncilvilised sport.

At that point of time,I wanted to scream back.
I wanted to shout..

"your sacrifies?Of a precious ticket?Of some precious soccer time?
you could have really ask your friend.yea,your mistake of bringing me along.
and i am sorry that i am such a fucker!"

I didnt said all these.I know I cant managed to scream all these when I feel like crying already.

I hold myself back,take a good firm look at you...told you I was scared but you dont have to spend time with me..and I pushed you off.

I held all my tears and walked off.

I dunno how far I have walked.Could have been 10km and more?
I just keep walking till I know you were behind my steps all the time.

Frankly speaking I dunno where I was heading all the time.
When I reached Geylang,I was so lost.

I chanced upon the other route of Geylang and cont walking.

And somehow we reached Paya Lebar.
I was so relieved that I finally reach a stop where I know the way back.

But as I was crossing the road lawlessly,I wished you wouldnt follow.
I know it was very dangerous.
At one point,I turn and saw the cars were driving right on and you were still crossing.
I knew that you will make to the other end safely but I was still praying inside.

I alighted at that bus stop on purpose.
I know our legs must be shouting for mercy yet I started another long walk all the way to my home.

I wouldnt expect you to follow me already.

The kinda distance that I walked is insane!
I had blisters on my soles.My thighs,though not painful but the circulation of blood/oxygen was block.( I feel)

When I reached L2...I remove my sandals.
I thought you werent there anymore.

I let go of my bitter tears.

Finally you came..and hug me.
And the rest is history.

But if you have noticed....I didnt tear half as much.
Maybe I have tear too much previously.

But I was equally sad.

Sad that I have to choose to do these and gave you all the craps and bad memories.
Sad that you actually followed me all the way,ignoring the perils of the roads with me.
Sad that you didnt scold me anymore,my wilfulness and all.

Sometimes I thought that happiness is just a figment of our imagination and sorrow is so real.

But I didnt wanna keep feeling this way.

If my legs are sore,yours must be too.
If my heart is broken,yours must be already into tiny dust.

I am so sorry.

The reason,other than the other fact,that I love prying into other's blogs(considered only those I know) is becoz I know I am the norm.

Found out from Juleana(the other Juleana) that it is just so normal to kick into a tantrum for no good reason.
It dont even need anything close to be associated with that red monster.
Somehow that red monster often aint the kick of my mood.i am so bloody normal when he/she is with me.
The only difference if I visited the ladies more often and spent more time in that cubicle.

And no matter how wrong we know we are,we just refused to budge in.

I mean...how idiotic and *beep beep beep* can gals get?

Sometimes you know that if you are a third party to assess the whole situtation,you will definitely sentenced the gal to life time imprison.
Sometimes it has nothing to do with the guy at all.

And the poor guy gets all the craps and still the one that melts you with a hug.
And the gal just refused to do anything till the guy bows.

How unfair,right?

I am just talking about myself,and give yourself a clap if you find youself being associated to me.
If you dont,my kudos to you!

You make the rest of us look even worse.
hehz.

anyway...the only good woman that guy can find themselves are perhaps the mothers or the grannies.
they are perhaps so good to the guys that the guys take their love for granted.and that is why they got such gfs,like me.

I justified our behaviour with karma.

Lol.what craps!

you see,sometimes I really wanna post interesting blogs.I wanna make you laugh or think or really just goes "mmmm" when you read mine.
I wish I am a good writer.
But guess i am never a author.
I dun read much novels.
I dun watch my English.
I dun get inspirations all the time.Even when I do,it doesnt appear in my blog.Or turn out as good as I thought.

Oh~till the next blog

Found this in one of my ex-classmate's blog.
Rather interesting that there are such a group of pple that still existed in the modern world.
That's not too bad.Rather interesting.
Like what she said in her blog,adds on to the variety of this world.



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Do you know what the Amish are?

Basically, they are a group of people who lives in accordance to strict religious beliefs and do not use modern conveniences or invention. For example electricity...


There are approximately 150,000 Amish in North America.
The largest group is in Holmes County, Ohio, with significant populations in Pennsylvania, northern Indiana and Iowa. Others are located in the eastern and mid-western states and Ontario, Canada.


The Amish are primarily farmers.
Some, however, are carpenters and cabinet makers, blacksmiths, buggy and harness makers, all geared toward supporting the Amish lifestyle.

Because farmland is expensive, and becoming increasingly scarce, some younger members have taken jobs in nearby factories and restaurants.

Others work in general stores that provide the Amish community with goods necessary to their lifestyle that they cannot produce themselves.

Many of their conveniences were used in America’s 19th Century or earlier houses. Wood or coal fueled stoves provide heat.
Cooking stoves are powered by propane, kerosene or wood. Kerosene or clear gas lamps provide light.


The Amish people do not pose for pictures because they believe that photographs violate the biblical teaching against making graven images (Exodus 20:4).

Also, they are concerned that pictures will promote self-pride.

They may put their hands or hats over their faces, look away or take evasive action to avoid having their picture taken.

Interesting huh.. If you are interested, you can visit this webbie http://www.amish.net/

I have been a terrible gal,always but I always refused to admit that I am a terrible baby inside.

I dunno if it is normal but I cant cope and cant stand the feeling of detachment that's just ahead of us.

I must have been useless,i know.

I just dun want to be used to this sort of detachment coz I know it wont be good.

*pull hair*-_-"

Sigh.
Even vonny got a job now,I gotta start pulling hard.

I....just...feel...like ...that....what..to...do....

Am i the only useless gal that feels like this,or is this quite the norm?
I dun see Yng nor Von nor any gals that I know behaving like this.
=<

(remind me to get a new mouse tml,I am gonna executed this.)

Well..It was suppose to be a pleasant day.One that I wouldnt like to miss for the final time,still I did.

Am not gonna debate whose fault does it lies on coz it's pointless.

When everything evaporates,it only seems like I am just kicking a fuss and digging a big hole outta a mole.

Seriously..I thought I wasnt.

But when the night falls,I can no longer tell.
So maybe I am.

Still such a trival matter.
I am not fussing abt the surface..maybe initially.But not then.

It's ok.It's over.
=)

I think this F* mouse is out to kill me!
REally blardy F_kg lousy!

I love that lil daily calender notebook I have.You know,the one that I scribble and draw to record the highlights of each day.
It's so nice to look over and over again.
Thanks to Von.Yes,I copied the idea.
No originality...I've already mentioned.

Anyway....
Well..nothing.=/
Feeling a lil sian over stuffs.
And there's no wind.
Can still smell the mint in my hair.I used that mint condition,finish it.

That's it..I am fucking highly irritated by this asshole mouse!
I am gonna get rid of it!
fuck!

The private gathering has been busted~
Irene has got a sudden meeting at K.O time.
Sian.

Actually i did thought of asking Yng for the movie then.Till my conscience gets the better of me.That is spending time at home.
-_-"
But i would be so bound to home after next week,and I hate to remind myself of that.
But I thought I would actively seeking for (temp) jobs then.
And it would be nearing Feb,a month which Yng and I have been waiting for.

Which reminds me that I must go check up their website regularly these days,you too gal.

I am thinking....thinking about Friday.Coz I wanna be doing something special and fun.
Well Mister,keep ur dayS for me!You are mine!

LOL.

*The fireworks had ceased,but what about the marks that's left behind?*
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Dont be bothered by that sentence,you wouldnt know what I am talking about.;)

I realised one thing!
That when I wake up earlier to get things done enthusiatically,by the time when things are done and I am ready to step out,my (chirpy)mood dont stay for long.
Either it's the environment,the weather,or just my energy level that dips.

Fuck!First is my monitor,den my idiotic mouse,now my keyboard is trying to be a lil funny!
If I am ever getting a new pc,i am gonna wreck this into pieces!

Yawns..
My eyes are closing on its own again.

Today I have got my second 'private gathering' with my chicks.
Been feeling bad coz I haven't been staying home these days.
But again..it's really for this 2 weeks.(and now counting less than that)

I dun feel obligated to ans any of those agents' phonecalls now.
And so slience another one.

But I am worried..
After the 22nd,i would be feeling like craps again.
Sigh....

I dunno what to do on my own,man.
~_~

Just feel so unprotected when I thinks of that.

Everynow and then,I got strangers that send me msges over at Hi5.
And I thought I gave this fella a true tale abt Singapore.
REad abt it.;)
gotta catch my show now.
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Hey Alex,
My country.
Well...Actually Singapore is quite a nice place to live in too.
We live in a society of many different races and is proud to be a harmonious lil country.
Though it's just a tiny dot on the world map,but it's big enough to hold different places of interestes for different cultures.

And the best thing abt here is perhaps the food.
We have got WIDE varieties here.So much so that pple who live/stay here would miss the food here once they are outta here.Lol.

Well...Though most of us from my era is western educated,I guess we still cant deny the Asian blood that flows in us.many a times,you would detect easily how different we behave from the Easterns.

But it puts us to shame that somehow we are neither here nor there.Meaning there are some pple who is trying to behave totally westernised but fail to do so.

You get what I mean?;)

And yes...Singapore is a small bot of pressure!
Differing from pple from the East,though we are all English educated,we are studying in a much stressful pace than them.And so says the working lifestyle too.

i dunno abt France,but I have friends who went to Aust told me that life is completely different from here.for instance,ard evening time,most shops are close and it's booze time.

Over here,you wont be surprised to see pple staying till the wee hours just to get things done.

In short you can imagine that the working individuals' life is like that:"Wake up,Breakfast(some even w/o),beat the traffic,went to the office,work,work,lunch time,work,work,OT,OT,home,dinner,work(maybe),sleep..and the cycle begins all over again"

Lol.Hey..it's true,ok?

That's why most of us,Singaporeans,dun really like here.
No doubt we are all proud of our nationality.In terms of achievements,efficiencies,cleaniness etc,we came amg the top in Asia countries.
But so those what I've said are our opportunity costs.We can hardly breath here.


That's alot huh?
Well,i just came back from date thus the free time to spin story(I swear that's true~)

So you are not French?You went over to study?

Btw,if you have a Friendster a/c..feel free to add me there.I usually went there more often.my emailmalevolence_angel@yahoo.com

ling.;)


=== Original Message === >>>> Hi Mich
How are you ?
France is a nice country with freedom, and open minded people.

I think it's a good place for strangers not rich to get a training or studying (many different social help).
In France it's possible for a stranger to have a language training : to learn french and be paid at the same time.Tell me more about your country please.
Bye see you soon

A side interuption:
Looks like there are some "fireworks" gg on somewhere. ;)
I know,none of my beewax.
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Saw this in my email.
Wow..it's better to believe than not.

The Tsunami happened in SW countries of China was predicted by the Chinese traditional farmer prediction system accurately. It also tell there is another one in NE countries of China (Japan and Korea) in 2005. Which is being confirmed by the geographical scientist already. So, don't plan your trip to Korea or Japan in 2005.
>
>One more thing, I guess you may heard about the "White Dragon King" in Thailand, right? Michael's friend went to Thailand and visit him before 26 Dec. The White Dragon King asked her to leave Thai immediately as there is a disaster coming. So she left and escape from the disaster. However, he also asked her not to go outside and stay at home in HK on 8 Feb (Year 30th) after 9:00 pm. He said something bad will happen in HK at that period. Inform your families or friends if possible.
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Wow.Lucky I am not rich enough to travel like that.
But really...I should be thankful that Singapore is so protected,but how much longer?

Anyway!
Met the Fockers already!What a peculiar but really just lovable family!

Actually I wouldnt be ashamed and will really love my folks like the Fockers!Ha.

Dont you wish that sometimes we wont feel shy or restricted to express ourselves,let go of our emotions and feelings!Feel free to hug,kiss and really just smile to strangers on the street?

One of the better part of Western culture that I like is that they are so liberated and never constricted themselves when it comes to expression of love/affection and many thing else.

Dont you love kissing ur parents,calling your in laws by name,having a cozy dinner and everything!

Maybe you beg to differ but I am just usually very easily influenced by movies.So pardon moi,milady/milord. =)

(Let's get FockeriZe...Asssss hole~~~)

And then there was the trailer of "Shall We Dance?" by Richard Gere and Jennifer Lopez.
(She hates to be call J.Lo.Duh~I thought it's fine for a stage name.Better that than SLY!)

Whoa!Richard Gere!I dunno if you ditto to that,but I tot if Richard Gere comes to seduce me,I would have give way the very first min!

I just cant handle such charismatic,enigmatic,sensually and sexually appealing MAN!(they wake every living cells of mine)
They are the type when whisper to ur ears and makes your body tingle all over and ur legs melt like ice cream under the sun.

Though charisma comes with age(for guys)BUT not every OLD guy can be so charismatic!
I am not gg to miss another DANCE movie.
I feel so 'ARGH' when I missed that 'A Dance to Remember'...or really something lidat.

Time is so precious b/w me and my boo now,so dun complain that I am sticking to u like Pooh to honey.

Gotta lay the clothes to dry.

Maria mode!

My monitor is really bad!In a bad shape!Sigh..why?Why must you died on me!(yet to be..but I foresee it soon)

Blah!

I wonder what makes a good blog?
The depth of the story plot?
The vast use of the vocabulary?
The precise and right practice of puntuations,grammers,spellings etc?
The flow of your whole blog?
The design of your blogskin?
The posting of interesting pictures?
Or really and actually all of the above.

Duh!

Anyway I know mine aint.Few that I've read are really good ones.Remember about this Ms Crayon's blog that I have been saying sometime back?
Her's makes a Distinction!

Speaking so,I am gonna change a blogskin.

Tell me if the music irritates you(if you hear)..coz I know this music,though is a good song by the late Aaliyah,but it sings like a pirated CD.(keep hicupping!)

Lalala...-_-!Booorrreeeddd

Ok I am not gonna change my blogskin yet,coz my monitor is retarded!

Had what his mum packed for me (the food) for dinner and we still cant finish.Gotta dump them liao.
-_-Bloated~

He told me that he would pack lunch for us tml.Wow!I was surprised!
I wonder what's my lunch tml?
Pls dun let it be any oily and too meaty stuff.I had enough of that.

We are gonna meet the Fockers tml.I know we are both kinda late for that date with Fockers but well..at least we are doing it.=)

Just now as I watched the tearful My Fair Princess 2,(which is really sad and tears evoking.That Dong er is the part that I cant help but weep along.Say that lil boy can realy act!)I was counting the days till the 22nd!
Sheese!
So I have decided not to do anything within this 13 days!

Being such a dependent and vulnerable self,can I survived the first 2 weeks at least?
Sigh...

Ah choo!Did someone just scold me?


Feeling bored!

-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-

If that agent called,should I ans?
It's a one month job,doing filing.
Great time..just one month will more or less recuperate my expenses.
Location wise..I just hope it wont fall anywhere from Concourse to my hotel.
Coz she told me it's a Beach Rd.

BUT!
The rest of this month till the 22nd is VERY precious to me!
Just the first 4 days of the coming week is kinda all packed.
Mon,we are gg for movies.
Tues,he got a match at Padang and wanted me to come down.And I wanna support him to,no matter how soccer and I dont relate to each other.
Wed,I have a Private Gathering with my gals.
Thurs,he has got a performance to perform back at NYP(Thanks to Mr Yuen) and I kinda wanna go back to school too!I miss the foods..somehow!=)

If you were me,what will you do?
Maybe I should put my phone to silent mode tml and feign ignorance at any unknown nos calling in.
Somehow I wish that the agent would tell me that the company hired someone else.

He...is just more impt than most things in my life that knocks in n out.

Seems like I have already come to a decision huh? ;p

I wanna a decent full date tml!!!
You do the planning,I relax.Exhausted all my cells of surprises and planning since Christmas till ur bday.Hehz.

Speaking of exhaustion,either I am really enervated or I am plainly just being a pig.

I woke up at 11am plus.
Ate my usual breakfast(oat) and surf a lil.
Till 12.45pm,I switched on the tv and watched the lame china drama for a while,catching no head and tail.
Watched the Chinese News,the Around the world in 1 week(Direct translation).
Eyes getting heavier so I laid on my so call sofa and watch.
By the end of the show,I am zzz.
Subconsiously I managed to switch off the TV with the remote and so I zzz uncomfortably on the limited space.

Woke up 2 hours later so that makes 3.30pm.
Took a hot bath(w steam smoking out) and still feeling zzz.

Do the housechores.
The clothes,the washing of plates,the sweeping n the mopping(I hate mopping!!) and finally I am awake.
Kinda la.

There wont be any good shows tonight.
I dun considered Charity shows being interesting.It is just one rate above the Stars Award.

Hey..my bro is back.
My mum got him the same shirt (His' dirty green colour) that I bought for Jason.(with her money...her gift to Jason ma..)
And he look kinda good huh..
Hmm....Size L aint too large for that skinny lanky Piglet.

Dont say i dont dote on him!I got him a Adidas wallet(though it is the one on sale) just becoz I learnt that he "lost" his wallet n really his' stinks!

Just that we dun really get along v well sometimes la.
He is a brother afterall.Get along too well may prove that his female hormones is on the rage.

Lol.

Can 2 gd friends work together?
If your ans is an instant 'yes'....um...lemme think abt that.

To a certain degree,I think good or very best friends can do anything but really work together.

Well..I dun mean working under a same boss or company.That's a diff story.

If you know what I mean,you wouldnt ask what I am talking abt. =)


Looking fwd to tomorrow~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I miss you!

The party didnt turn up as bad as I imagined.
I mean I aint unwanted,hehz!

Lets move to the kids department first.


I just love Charmaine!
She is a absolute doll.Her beaut is beyong description.
Someone who will put Barbie to shame when she grows up.
Definitely the most adorable kiddo I ever met!

Of coz I always adore Sophia~
How can her mummy snap off her hair?
When I asked why did she cut her hair,she told me her mum doesnt have the time to tie.-_-~
It is really doll-cut now,but I prefer her with her hair.
Long,smooth,black and silk!
I wonder why do kids ALWAYS have silky hair.
Mine is a stack of hay!

Hey~Cindy kinda slim down abit huh?I took a closer look at her today.Actually she does have a face that would be rather attractive once she becomes a lady.

And I met Cadence(is that how it's spelt?)I have never seen her before but she is really pretty as well.I can only watch in awe when she and Charmaine are playing.
And I was watching 'The Princess and the Pauper' with Maine then.
Now..if you know that Barbie animation,it's abt 2 gals looking alike but share different fate (and hair colour) and blah blah blah!
I had 2 lil princesses standing infront of me then!

Thank god Sarah is no longer kicking n punching!Ha.Rem' when I first saw her,all she did was 'kick kick!!'

Of coz Jason's fav is that Hong hong!That lil boy~well at least he can call me jie jie le.
I dunno..maybe I like girls better? =/

Bing Kun!I cant believe he's Sec one liao.He is so tiny!(Sophia's bro)Pray by some miracle,he can shoot up!What a nice kid.
And you know what...dear Bing Kun has a gf in his pri sch!Haha.
I made him promised to show me the pic next time.

I didnt interact with the rest,they are 'grown up' liao.
I badly wish I have Xiao Hui's metabolism rate!She ate ALOT and still remain that slim.
I hate this kinda pple,ya know!
Know of 2-3 in my life time!
Evon(teo),Edlyn,Ruifang!
Hmph!

Back from the kiddos to the friends.
In the end,only Lay Keow,Nina,Beatrice,n Tse Yong turn up.(those I know la)
Gosh..I miss crappy keow!
I really think she slim alot more and her skin~So radiant and fair!
She loves Maine at first sight too!!

If you dunno her,she is the top student in Accountancy and is one of those leading in income amg our batches!

L.Keow is just so nice,interactive and friendly that I can tell auntie really likes her!
How can I be like L.Keow so maybe auntie can likes me even more??HAHA!!
Nah~

Chatting with Nina n co' aint as weird as I thought to be.Coz we are not so close,you see!

Sheese..I miss TEP!

So come the cake,the singings,the playing with kiddos,the chatting with frens,the photo takings,the eating and still eating.
SO I broke all vows!
Amen~

---Interuption!---
Just now I was gg thru Jason's friendster list to look for Beatrice.
But I saw Andrea(his sec one chick for a while).
Outta interest/curiousity/KPO,I look at her pic.

"WHAT HAPPEN TO HER!!!!"
That last photo shocked me.
Did I remembered her wrongly or what?
(Is she really married??)
Maybe it's the photo's prob la huh.

He...*weak smile*

Auntie packed for me alot of food home.
Wha...
Thanks Auntie!

I wondered how did the rest of the aunties think of me?
He told me his God ma is trying to compare who's prettier.Me or herself.
Ha.You are kidding!I think he is.

His Godma is a proud mother of 4!Ming Kun,Bing Kun,Sophia n Sarah!
But frankly speaking,if I am their mother..I would nuture them more tendatively.

*opps..Sorry!!!*


Yea~~

Dear 21 le!

Must be a more sensible boy,ok!
No RA(s) for you!Ha..machiam you havent watch any.

May you stay lucky,healthy,safe and sound and really just ....um....all the gd things la.

I told him this year is not a very good year coz alot of pple turning 21!
Look at my figures (in the bank) and scream!!!

ha.

Nitez!

First thing first...
HaPpY 21st!!!!
Hope(and I know you do) love every bits n pieces of yesterday~^^

Have you ever wondered what's so grand about the age 21?
Why do most pple hold big celebrations when they hit 21?

For celebrations is the norm(maybe some rich asses hold grand celebrations every year),but I mean why is 21 the age?(for us--the normal bunch?)

I've just woke up so my brain is not really cracking up right yet.

Ok..yesterday.

We met at 5.30pm,walked ard aimlessly in town
Town is getting bor-ier as days passed.

Finally dinner time came!
I had wanted our dinner at Cream Bistro but we were way past that area.
As we walked along Somerset,an idea flashed thru my mind.
I had long to check up the Checkers Cafe(behind Somerset MRT) so I brought him there.
He first guessed I wanted to walk to M.Sultan.Haha.

At the cafe,I saw...(*drums roll*) Yan Yng!
That skinny gal is still as skinny but has already bloom to a beautiful lady!
=)

I passed him the white collar shirt I saw at U2.i wanted him to wear today and I love that shirt at first sight.It's a hot pick!
(note..Decoy #1)
If ya ask me how's the food.Well...I find it...only ok la,passable.
The price?It should be considered as cheap for a cafe.
2 main dishes cum drinks summing up to near $40(rounding up).
You have a wider variety of choices.Namely Singaporean dishes(I heard MEE GO RENG!) and the normal Western Cuisines.

One thing is the coming of food is kinda slow,considering the amt of pple at the cafe that time.

and the food is of coz filling.(bursting all the diet vows)

Our conversations ran from his bday tml,the kids,his aunties,Joann's cafe and so on.
Of coz it is the last that is most interesting of all.
Coz we were debating,no..we were talking abt the profitability of her venture.

Although it is really none of my hairwax but isnt it exciting to see someone of ur age(and someone you know)opening a cafe(and it's also somewhat my wish).

Just talking abt her idea of sub-letting her level 1 of her cafe,I thought it is not a very good idea.
I mean it is a good idea and another money scheme for them.(Gosh..I hope she will never know I am here kay poing her biz)
But if I were a 3rd party,I thought it is not much an advtg for me.

And so I openingly shared my views to Jason and he thought I was infected by his biz-minded germs.
Ya right.Lol.

After dinner..we really walked to M.Sultan road.
Quite penitently,it is my virgin walk to that area!-_-"

And so I saw all those clubs~Mdm Wong,Dbl O etc.All those big clubs,small clubs,all smoke infected clubs,all the over zealous clubbers.I wonder what is so interesting abt it.

We walked past to Riverside pt.That is an areas where all those cafes,restuarants earn at least $10k per night.(hehz...I am just guessing but I am sure it's somewhat there)
But I dunno..once in a blue moon is ok.But I wouldnt fancy say a dinner over there.All the chit chattings of those pple has already ruined whatever atmosphere that the restuarants/cafes are tring to create.(if any)
And the tables are so close for personal comfort.

You can go on inhaling other's smoke,hear their burps and alot of *mwahhahaha* laughter.

Cont'd walking would lead you to Clarke Quay.I looked miserably at our own Singapore 'River'.
(it is a drain aka long kang in our terms.)
We sat down for a chat.
It feels so nice that I forgot what we were chatting whole night.

But at the back of my mind,I was worrying abt the cake.(rem,Yng?)

I wanted to went to..Carrefour(or however it is being spell) but it's already too late.
As we headed home,I went for a bet.
It was a time when all the cakes houses are closed,so I told him I need to wee~ and I insisted Raffles City coz the toilets are cleaner.
And he believed I was just being fussy??Ha.

When we parted to the toilet,I hid behind the wall and make sure he's outta sight.
I scurry off to the basement.
It's hilarious,I tell ya.
I can virtually see myself,as if I am watching a 3rd party.

I was wearing the grey long skirt yesterday(with a green tube and look so Pui~)So I had to kinda lift up my skirt a lil and ran faster.
It is almost like a gal rushing to the airport and look ard frantically.I wonder did anyone see that and thinks the same?

I am kinda panic then and became more so when all the shops are closed.I looked up and on my radar to a high alert!To me,it feels like a big emergency!

I saw Haagen Daz!!I quickly ran up and they were close to closing!All the staff are doing the cleaning up.
I looked at their cakes and nearly fall with dissapointments.Coz they displayed cakes,but is those whole cakes one.

My knuckles are turning white(ok that's exaggeration ) from clenching.I went to the counter and asked if they have got slices of cakes.
I broke into a big smile with a capital S when the answer is positive!
Of coz I chose the cake with the yummiest description.

Hey I swore I didnt know it's ice cream cake so my mouth turned to a big 'O' ( = O) when I paid for it.
Although I am truly happy that I got the cake afterall,but I was thinking... "what the...for a piece of cake!So what you are 'branded'~"

Lol.

We managed to reach home before 12.There is enough time for me to finally pee,glupped a cup of water,make a quick adjustment of my hair,grab the big present and ciao out~

I blind folded him (with my cardigan) to let him have a surprise for the cake.(flavour).
But if you are thinking that's my main intention,it's wrg.
It is nothing but a decoy~(note decoy #2)
Puzzled..read on further..Hehz.

After the bday song,he ate the cake naturally.
I stared at the cake and became 'Smeagol!'(LOTR) instanstly.
Coz when I saw how yummy the cake is,I was chanting Smeagol's fav line at the back of my mind.

"my...presssssssss~~~~cccciooousssss"

LOL!!!

I have 1 or 2 bites of the cake!WOW!!!!
My virgin taste of ice cream cake went to that!

Ok..here's where Decoy#2 came to use.
I told him he looked cute with that cardigan blind folding,and wanted to take a pic of him.
While he is happily blind folded,I took off my slippers and quickly ran back to get the big gift that's sneezing outside my door.
(it's cold den)

when I returned,he is happily posing!
LOL!!

I guessed I did surprised him with another gift.

He went through all the hussle of unwrapping it.
(thanks Dearie Pepper for all the wrappers,though I paid for that.Ha)

My heart was pounding heavily when it came to the last few wrappers.
I dunno but I was all very nervous den.

I planned and really SHOULD insist that I unwrapped the last piece of wrapper for him!Coz I knew he would have know what's inside when it came to the last.
*hammered myself!)

His reaction is not what I expected.
But I guess he was touched beyond words.

Shall leave up this sissy part in this blog.Haha.

He said something like 'pay me back' by getting another Arsenal jersey (females one) for me.
I turned down with a disgusted look!
Ha..pls la..dont buy me something that I would wear less than 5 times and leave it hanging in the wardrode!
That Real Marid one?It's fate is undesirable!Like a widow!I have only worn it twice!

But for that piece of jersey,I went thru a hard day just getting it.
Was in a state of triumph when I got it.

Not to mention I am still that Cai Tou there!

But I bet every single guy that was in that store and had noticed me that day,would have wished that I am their gf instead!
LOL!
Kidding!

Yawn...bloated and sleepy..

Special thanks to RQ and Yng for their collaboration!

Love ya all!

and last thing last,

Happy 21st,booey`

Cya later!

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